keputusan...

stelah beberapa hari aku merefleksikan dalam diriku sendiri tentang panggilanku,,aku sudah menemukan jalan yang terbaik yang harus kupilih,,,
memang mungkin terkesan sangat emosional,,namun memang memang jalan itulah yang akhirnya harus aku pilih,,
merasa terbebani?...tidak...
merasa lega?...tidak juga...
merasa bebas?...tidak sepenuhnya...
namun memang hal inilah yang mengganjal dalam hatiku...sejak aku berada di kelas persiapan...
mungkin memang bukan ini jalan yang cocok untukku....
keputusanku,,keputusan akhir yang harus ku pikirkan dengan matang....aku memutuskan untuk berhenti...dari panggilan ini...

falling

Feels like my life's been passing by
With happiness just bein' a lie
How did I get here, where am I going?
One more day without knowing
Struggling for one more breath
As I'm drowning in a painful death
Can someone reach out for me?
In this dark and dreary sea

'Cause it seems like no one can
Hear the voice that's calling
Try to take the most I can stand
But I keep falling

I try to chase the memories away
But they haunt me everyday
I hope I get over this phase
'Cause I'm stuck inside this haze
All I need is a simple lift
Such a sweet and precious gift
So I don't lose it all before
What I have left is nothing more

In my isolating misery
I feel like the epitome
Of darkness and despair
Just leading onto nowhere
Will I be able to win this race?
I'm runnin' at a slow pace
Trying hard to press on
But the motivation's gone

'Cause it seems like no one can
Hear the voice that's calling
Try to take the most I can stand
But I keep falling


I try to chase the memories away
But they haunt me everyday
I hope I get over this phase
'Cause I'm stuck inside this haze
All I need is a simple lift
Such a sweet and precious gift
So I don't lose it all before
What I have left is nothing more

It may not have to be this way
Waiting for me they could be a new day
Maybe I can revise
And escape from the lies

I try to chase the memories away
But they haunt me everyday
I hope I get over this phase
'Cause I'm stuck inside this haze
All I need is a simple lift
Such a sweet and precious gift
So I don't lose it all before
What I have left is nothing more

There could be something more
To what my life may have in store
I'll move from where I began
Keep on pressing through to the end

angels

I sit and wait
Does an angel
Contemplate my fate?
Do they know
The places where we go
when we're gray and old
'Cause I've been told
That salvation
Lets their wings unfold

So when I'm lyin' in my bed
Thoughts runnin' through my head
And I feel that love is dead
I'm lovin' angels instead

And through it all
She offers me protection
A lot of love and affection
Whether I'm right or wrong
And down the waterfall
Wherever it may take me
I know that life won't break me
When I come to call
She won't forsake me
I'm lovin' angels instead

When I'm feelin' weak
And my pain walks down
A one way street
I look above
And I know I'll always be blessed with love

And as the feeling grows
She breathes flesh to my bones
And' when love is dead
I'm lovin' angels instead

And through it all
She offers me protection
A lot of love and affection
Whether I'm right or wrong
And down the waterfall
Wherever it may take me
I know that life won't break me
When I come to call
She won't forsake me
I'm lovin' angels instead

And through it all
She offers me protection
A lot of love and affection
Whether I'm right or wrong
And down the waterfall
Wherever it may take me
I know that life won't break me
When I come to call
She won't forsake me
I'm lovin' angels instead

demolition love

Hand in mine, into your icy blues
And then I’d say to you we could take to the highway
With this trunk of ammunition too
I’d end my days with you in a hail of bullets

I’m trying, I’m trying
To let you know just how much you mean to me
And after all the things we put each other through and

I would drive on to the end with you
A liquor store or two keeps the gas tank full
And I feel like there’s nothing left to do
But prove myself to you and we’ll keep it running

But this time, I mean it
I’ll let you know just how much you mean to me
As snow falls on desert sky
Until the end of everything
I’m trying, I’m trying
To let you know how much you mean
As days fade, and nights grow
And we go cold

Until the end, until this pool of blood
Until this, I mean this, I mean this
Until the end of…

I’m trying, I’m trying
To let you know how much you mean
As days fade, and nights grow
And we go cold

But this time, we’ll show them
We’ll show them all how much we mean
As snow falls on desert sky
Until the end of every…

All we are, all we are
Is bullets I mean this

As lead rains, pass on through our phantoms

Forever, forever
Like scarecrows that fuel this flame we’re burning
Forever, and ever know how much I want to show you you’re the only one
Like a bed of roses there’s a dozen reasons in this gun

And as we’re falling down, and in this pool of blood
And as we’re touching hands, and as we’re falling down
And in this pool of blood, and as we’re falling down
I’ll see your eyes, and in this pool of blood
I’ll meet your eyes, I mean this forever

girl i know

Let me tell you about a girl I know
That comes alive when you take off her clothes
Theres no telling just where shes been
Ask around but no one seems to know yeah



Late at night when your looking to sin
Call her up and she'll lay down the law
You cant trust her cuz she'll lie to your face
But thats not why you gave her a call



Waist deep inside
Now thats the burning desire

We've all been more than eager to sin
And it feel's alright
Til we pay the price
Now you choose either naughty or nice
Cuz she's here for you it's all your's tonight

You won't believe the stories I've been told
About a girl I know

Another thing about this girl I know
She's more comfortable down on her knees
Went to school got a job and then she shot it to hell
All cuz shes born to please yeah



Don't get her mixed up because she know's what she likes
Can tell the difference between
Right or wrong
She know's your watching every one of her moves
Just more reason to string you along yeah

Your waist deep inside
Now thats the burning desire

We've all been more than eager to sin
And it feel's alright
Til we pay the price
Now you choose either naughty or nice
Cuz shes here for you it's all your's tonight

You won't believe the stories I've been told
About a girl I know

The first time's hard enough
But you made it though
The second time
I see the changes in you
She's got you somehow
Your needing her now


We've all been more than eager to sin
And it feel's alright
Til we pay the price
Now you choose either naughty or nice
Cuz shes here for you it's all your's tonight

You won't believe the stories I've been told
About a girl I know

i wont see you tonight

Cry alone, I've gone away
No more nights, no more pain
I've gone alone, took all my strength
I've made the change,
I won't see you tonight

Sorrow, sank deep inside my blood
All the ones around me
I cared for and loved

It's building up inside of me
A place so dark, so cold, I had to set me free
Don't mourn for me,
You're not the one to place the blame
As bottles call my name I won't see you tonight

Sorrow sank deep inside my blood
All the ones around me
I cared for and most of all I loved
But I can't see myself that way
Please don't forget me or cry while I'm away

Cry alone, I've gone away
No more nights, no more pain
I've gone alone, took all my strength
But I've made the change,
I won't see you tonight

So far away, I'm gone.
Please don't follow me tonight
And while I'm gone everything will be alright

No more breath inside
Essence left my heart tonight
No more breath inside
Essence left my heart tonight